Early this month in my May Goals post, I mentioned how I was not meeting my goals when it came to nutrition. For the past year or so I've really been coasting along working out, running, and just eating so-so. I started to notice I was actually gaining some weight these past few months. Yea, I can give you all my excuses as to why I was eating badly. I'm an emotional eater and with Jason's injury and surgeries, food was comforting me when I stressed about work, keeping up with household chores, the kids.....everything really! Wine had also been quite comforting ;) But, like I said, I could give you all the excuses but the truth is that I allowed my emotions to get the best of me. I was reacting to the situations around me rather than being proactive and making the right choices for me and ultimately my family too. It's not like I was the only one eating pizza, right? So, I finally realized enough is enough. I've been at this for too long to still not have reached my goal. I told myself 2015 was going to be my year to find balance and I haven't been going in that direction.
In March I tried to get back to eating Paleo again. Afterall, the Paleo diet is what helped me lose those first 30 lbs, granted it took about a year, but I have managed to keep most of it off. But, I just couldn't find myself sticking to it this time around. I'd eat Paleo-friendly meals most of the week, unless I was tired and we ordered pizza or we were running errands and ended up eating out....See where this is headed? Like I said, eating Paleo helped me so much at the beginning of my journey, but I just couldn't make it work for me anymore. It taught me to eat real foods and not be afraid of healthy fats. I learned to cook and eat whole foods, not processed foods out of boxes. I will always be grateful for that. I'm so glad I found Paleo when I did and I never intend on buying Pastaroni ever again! But, I found myself at a nutritional crossroads. I wanted to eat balanced meals regularly and not use the entire weekend as a "cheat meal" but Paleo wasn't the answer anymore. Here's where Reconstruction by Leti comes in.
You can read about how I started following her on Instagram and a bit about her program HERE. I signed up for her program just this month and so far so good. I'm excited to see my results at the end of the month. I've been learning how to push myself harder than ever on my own workouts and runs. I never dreamed an 8 minute mile would be within my reach, but guess what? I just might get there. Last week I ran a 8:26 mile! But most importantly, I'm learning to eat differently. I'm learning to take charge of what I eat without omitting entire food groups out of my diet and allowing for flexibility too. Counting Macros is tricky and you can find tons of info online if you google it, but basically it's finding the right balance of carbs, fats, and protein for your body and your goals. Leti figured it all out for me as part of her program :) I'm happy to be eating dairy and grains again regularly. I'm not starving, I'm eating healthy, and losing weight without sacrificing muscle - because I've worked too hard for these baby biceps!!! I'm no expert on tracking macros (yet!) but I'm working to get there. I know for some tracking your food intake daily and measuring and weighing is tedious, but it's worth it. Nothing worth having ever comes easily, right? It's not about obsessing over food, but rather finding the balance that works for you. And, in order to find that balance to get to where you want to go, you need to put in the work.
Yes, change makes me a bit nervous, but I'm determined to embrace this journey and look forward to the physical and mental changes that come with it. How are you working to find balance in your life? I'd love to hear about!
PS. Go check out Leti_Reconstructed on instagram because she's celebrating her 1 year anniversary with a nice little offer for June ;)