Well, hello there 2019! I realize it’s been quite a bit of time since my last blog post. Looking back on 2018, it was a year of growth and trying new things. It started out a bit rocky and then turned into this frenzy of busy that I struggled with. It’s ben full of adjustments and some figuring things out as we went along. Hence, why I’ve dropped off the face of the blog world!
I look forward to continuing to grow and learn in 2019. After 15 years as a photographer and business owner, I’ve learned that you never stop learning. We must constantly evolve and not get stuck on our old ways because when we we don’t move forward. If you don’t move forward, you will inevitably move backwards. Sometimes what works one year or during a particular season, won’t work for the next and that’s ok. You keep trying, you keep moving, and you will make progress. I feel this is the same in all aspects of my life. There’s this ebb and flow in life that we must constantly reevaluate and keep adjusting.
Lately I’ve been feeling this a lot when it comes to my running and fitness level. I’ve felt tired and downhearted because I’ve let my life get in the way. I stopped following my own advice of making time for myself and I’ve let all kinds of excuses stop me from doing the things I loved. Rather than being consistent in running and working out, I’ve slowed down (literally) and I’ve been too tired or lazy to do much about it. I’ve cried about it, gotten depressed, and then gotten back up for a few days, just do get back down and fall into the same rut. I’m struggling hard with this and it’s kicking my butt!
I want to end this post on a positive note, because that’s what I do. I realize the problem, I address it, and then I make a plan to fix it. But, if I’m being honest with myself, I can’t seem to find an answer to this problem of mine, to this lack of motivation that is keeping me from enjoying the things I used to do. This lack of caring that is keeping me from meal planning and sticking to a healthy diet. So, although I don’t have a solution just yet, I felt it was important to admit this finally here in my little corner of the internet. Just writing down my struggles is helping me not feel so defeated. Maybe this is just part of that ebb and flow, it’s the part that’s not so flowy, I guess. My question is, how do I get it back? How do I get back that motivation I had for so long? I don’t know the answer, but I sure am going to try to figure it out!
2019 is going to be a year of learning and struggling to move forward, but I do plan to move forward. So far, I’ve signed up for a local trail half marathon that I may end up changing to the 10K because my training has been mediocre. I’m also signed up for a trail Ragnar Trail in Zion, UT for this May. I do want to focus on my nutrition more and get back to boot camps and other forms of exercise besides running. I will always consider myself a runner, but I think adding some other activities will help me find the balance I need and the love for working out again.
Do you have any tips on how to stay motivated? I’d love to read them in the comments below! XO
PS. Come back later this week to catch up on what’s been going on these past few months!